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Exhale

2/15/2012

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   So Whitney Houston (1963-2012) has passed away.  If you are not under a rock I am sure you have been flooded with images of her, flashing across television screens all over, old Whitney, Bodyguard Whitney, young and dewy fresh Whitney (“You Give Good Love”).  It is hard not to have some sort of response if you are over 30.  She was with us as a media presence for a long time, even as her life was cut short.

I was at dinner with my partner and friends – we had just been sat.  As I returned from the restroom everyone had their Smartphone out and stunned looks on their faces.  It is the kind of news you have to tell, and they did.  My stomach fell.  I didn't know why this affected me so much; is it because she had been with us for so long?  I can personally attest that “I Wanna Dance With Somebody (Who Loves Me)” inspired sensations of murder in me – they played that thing relentlessly.  It was goody-goody and hard driving at once.  I cannot have been alone in this.  Still I was deeply affected at her passing.

She had actually already lost the voice – that beautiful voice – years earlier.  For her last “comeback” record (I Look To You, 2009) she could sadly no longer hit the 2nd and 3rd registers of her famous 3 octave range.  Maybe this was when it set in that I missed her, not because I had loved her so much in the 80s (I remember how sparkling her first single sounded as a teen driving to the beach, but let’s be honest, most of it was cheesy to me), but because someone great had left the room.  Just like Michael Jackson, it is very easy to take a gift for granted when it is delivered so effortlessly and with such command.  Whitney, even at the end, never sang a song she did not positively own.  She was a pro.

I think that her best period, her prime, is The Bodyguard /Waiting To Exhale period.  I have read and heard a lot of interesting discussion on just what Houston did to the style of music after 1985 (and the many successive acolytes starting with Mariah Carey). Basically she made polite ballads popular again.  Songs of love and longing, never lust, and certainly not revenge.  That is why they were corny to a teenage me.  By the time of The Bodyguard her style had matured and became smokier.  The songs were at once more demanding (“I Have Nothing”) and less fussy (“I Will Always Love You”).  It began a period of more stripped down material that let to one of her finest moments, “Exhale (Shoop Shoop)”, a winding and conversational moment for her.  It was clearly the work of an adult, a mature woman, and an artist in her prime.  It shows no production, there are no fingerprints on it, it is just her. I had always imagined she produced it herself.

And at the height of her beauty, talent and fame she met and married Bobby Brown.  This is what haunts us still, the fact that she sullied a perfectly constructed image, first as America’s sweetheart, then our favorite soul diva.  I had always been aware of the other Whitney, a fiercely combative interviewee, with a very haughty and testy persona.  There was always confrontation and danger in those eyes, no?  She had the haughtier of a queen.  The marriage and drug abuse only exaggerated what we already knew. It made her fall from grace seem like a natural devolution.  I have heard her say that she never felt like a real person until she met Bobby Brown – because he wanted her so directly.  In so defined a person this was bound to create two versions- good Whitney and bad Whitney, the public and the private.  Our fascination at her passing is in this dichotomy: we cannot believe that something so young and fresh had changed, and then passed.   It is the American way that we push our heroes to the brink.

As there are no accidents, perhaps she was waiting to exhale and she actually did want to dance with somebody who loved her.  It is sad that it led her down such a long and destructive path.  But it is worthy of her that we must now piece it all back together: old Whitney, young Whitney, crack head Whitney, and that impossibly fresh smiling lovely young girl who enchanted us all. As the story unfolds for us one thing is certain: those “cheesy” safe ballads have more than stood the test of time.  In their very accessibility they had hidden an absolute master of American song.

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3/3/2012 01:04:14 am


Mary

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 11:11:59 pm

Beautiful tribute to Whitney, Mark. You touched upon so many interesting points. One thing that strikes me is how her relationship with Bobby B seemed to be her way of saying that she was tired of being 'packaged' and told what to sing (and, therefore, what image to project) by Clive Davis. She wanted us to know that she had a 'raunchy' side. I interpret that "haughtier of a queen" as a cover for the deep insecurities of someone who went straight to the top a bit too fast based on someone else's choices for her. If singing 'raunchy' wasn't in line with what her record label wanted, than at least she could exert control over her life in choosing Bobby B and drugs as an escape (much the same way anorexics see food, or the lack thereof, as the only way to control their lives). In the end, she was being pressured again to perform when she really couldn't. So sad...

Dick

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 6:14:48 am
The first time I heard,"I Will Always Love You" I was running with my Walkman. I was blown away. Damn she had an incredible voice and damn, she was a vision. But, after watching her stuggles though the years is anyone really surprized at her untimely demise? Directly or indirectly substance abuse has been the cause of so many indiscriminante deaths. Peace Whitney...

Sheryl

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 8:27:19 am
Wonderful words...

Mark

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 8:29:42 am
Mary - I wonder if she was trapped by those songs or just the perfect vehicle for them? Too perfect - fame has a steep cost. I do think she wanted to be more "real" (Bobby) and it led to good/bad Whitney. But I always saw that bad girl...always. Dick you are right - drugs take them all. xo m.

Mary

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 1:04:34 pm

"I wonder if she was trapped by those songs or just the perfect vehicle for them?"
Mark, I think it was both...she WAS the perfect vehicle for those songs, but then she felt trapped by them. Some have said that it's too bad that no one loved her enough to help her kick the drugs and save Whitney from herself, but I seriously wonder whether any of us has that much control over another human being's choices in life. It's a beautiful story when it happens and there's a happy ending, but I tend to think that it's more the exception than the rule because people in that very sad condition don't love themselves enough to let anyone else love them.

Megan

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 3:41:13 am
Whitney was a bitch. I have not been sad or surprised at her death. The tragedy is not in the overdose but in the way she flushed her amazing gift down the toilet so many years earlier. I've not had much feeling about her death. She made me sad long ago. Death seemed like a natural progression. But you are right. Shoop Shoop was genius.RIP.

Mark
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Mon, 27 Feb 2012 12:50:21 pm

That is harsh Megan! I feel softer now that the full arc of her life is apparent. Perhaps that attitude was just to hide some insecurities. The drug addiction was especially sad considering her gift. I am glad for the songs! and sad for the crack head path she went down.

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